First off and foremost I want to let you know this is a testimony of what God has brought me from, not to glorify ignorance.
I was very naive as a child and young adult. I hung around the wrong people and being a follower, I made many wrong choices.
Due to the many wrong choices and breaking 10 out of 10 commandments I felt that God could not and would not love such a one.
My first visit to jail was at 13 for auto theft. At age 17 I was arrested for aggravated robbery. At 18 I shot 3 guys and went to court facing 21 to 105 yrs in prison. I was guilty and the evidence was against me. Through the court hearings and such a lot happened with Pastor Gary Koch from the Church of the Nazarenes, visited me every Saturday and was there for support yet not forcing the gospel on me. He gave me a beautiful leather Bible that I later gave to another inmate stating “I had no use for it”. Later on, the very guy I gave it to saved me from gang attaches. I rejected God and He used that to show me He still had a love for me. Another pastor showed me how Paul claimed to be the “chief sinner” the top dog if you will and that God’s love far exceeded ALL my sins. He clearly showed me His love and I died in prison. I died to self and lies and now live in Christ and truth. No mans sin is bigger than what God can forgive. No man is unlovable before God. He created us and loves us like a good father loves his child. I went from having no life and 5 felonies to have 5 kids and life more abundant. I no longer believe a lie that God doesn’t love me. For He has shown me by His actions.
Even though there are tough days, no day is bad in comparison to what God has for us in heaven. Choose you this day who you will serve. As for me and my house, we choose to serve the Lord.